Monday, February 25, 2008 @ 6:05 AM
You know there are a million things going through my mind now, how I wish blogger could just read them all out and save me the effort of typing it all out here.
Okay, let's face it. I'm being emotional now.
It sucks real bad, I'm sick and I'm down.
Where is everybody?
Where am I? What am I doing? What is wrong with me?
Inside me now, I feel anger, I don't know why. I think I'm angry with myself.
like what is it that I want? Who do I live for?
It's like being kept in this superficial world, where my answers are given to me like a silver spoon in my mouth.
Everyone says, live for your parents, live for yourself, live for your friends.
Really?
Really, do I have to be all that to be normal?
Like what on earth am I talking about?
Those small hints have come in small ways, telling me that I'm seeking for a
change.
Why do people even love me? No no no no no no.
regardless of what I do, it'll always be '' we/I love you, no matter what! Stay strong Estelle!''
Strong? Whoa.
that word seems powerful to me now.
I've lost it man. It's gone, it's all gone.
I'm no more the old ME, I'm the new ME.
I HATE IT, THIS SUCKS, IT'S AWFUL.
