Estelle Goh
CHIJ Secondary TP
ijestelle@hotmail.com
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1. Improve and sharpen my Dance Techniques
2. Book Vouchers, so that I can buy lots' of em
3. Pick up a new skill during the holidays
4. Spend more time with God
5. Carolling with the Llamas again!
6. Picnics, sleepovers, shopping with the Sixsomes & Llamas
7. Catching up time with friends
8. Christmas with the folks in malaysia
9. Become a better person

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Two words describe how I feel at this moment,

Breathless, and Touched.

I've just finished reading Thaddeus' book," Running the full distance" ,
which all of us bought yesterday during the special mass in memory of him.
Whoa.
How could anyone so angelic ever be on earth and go through so much
so that he would carry out God's duties?
Never did I expect in my wildest dreams,
that I would actually cry reading the book.
Bennett's mummy has really compiled and written the book,
in a way beyond words.
I have personally never seen him before in my life,
I only came to know about him upon his death.
Sad huh?
People only realise that you are there, or that you're important,
only after you have passed on.
It must have been so hard for his family, losing someone so dear, suddenly.
The feelings' still raw, after all it has only been 9 months since
he was still running the race.....

I started to think of what if.....
mummy died tomorrow?
daddy died tomorrow?
I died just this moment?
what if.....someone close to me just left us all, to return home.
The thoughts make me scared.
It must have been difficult for that girl in school,
who has a sister who suffered from schizophrenia & depression.
Her sister's fear? Death.
Her sister would always lament about the possibilities of her
passing on at any moment, what she would want at her funeral,
and each day she would try to kill herself.
My heart goes to you, my dear friend.
Having to come home everyday, finding your sister attempting
to commit sucide.
whoa.

I guess lately I haven't been my best.
deep inside lies a sad and troubled me.
I'm not gonna lament about things here,
besides it's Easter.
It should be a time to be happy and merry
that our Lord has risen.

:D
smile, estelle...

[ editted on 26 march ]