Sunday, December 28, 2008 @ 8:27 AM
hi.
In my life, I have made many many friends, school, competitions, council, dance, church, family and others. Some stay really close to my heart, some just fade as the years go by... some grow deep within me that you know when they're happy, you feel happy for them, and when they're sad you feel sad too? It is really hard sometimes to let people know how much you love them, despite the countless times you tell them that you love them and that you'll always be there for them. These few days have been really rough in terms of emotions? You dont know what you actually feel?
Or whether these things in your head are even considered as problems? Even though my Christmas this year was very spiritual but I guess it's our testing period.............. I especially hold onto this phrase that Fr Bosco mentioned during his sermon,
" Joy is not when you are free from problems, it is when you can see God in them"
Theres many misconceptions in our lives, that if we're free from burdens or troubles we would be joyous, which is why everyone is trying so hard to lead a life free from problems...
But is it really that easy a task? To make life a smooth sailing sail?
Perfection sometimes leads you to failure.
that's what I realised only today..
People change over time, and maybe I have to too, I have to accept people for what
they have becomed... seems like i'm only clinging onto the ghost of the past.
sometimes you feel like you miss this friend, then again you hate this friend for what he/she has become, is it really their fault, or is it just me?
why can't everyone stay the same?
I only want the people I love so much to be happy, and comfortable.
I dont want to see them miserable, disappointed and in distress, tearing, crying, begging for help.
God, you really stir deep within me.
sorry for this whole chunk of emotional stuff.
i need a break.
a break from everything.
to just...
think
